When I was younger, I used to do this exercise where I would try to think as far into the future as I possibly could until I would get bored thinking myself into oblivion. I remember very clearly how I thought life would turn out for me in high school and college when I was young.
It didn’t turn out the way that I thought it would.
It took me so long to grasp the idea that I wouldn’t ever be able to predict the future. I was so sure that one day I would dream the major events that would occur in my life, or that one day something would seize my body and force me to start painting the event where I would have to save a bus load of people, then I would have to decipher the date and fulfill my fate. Oddly enough, I never did acquire the ability to see into the future, consciously or otherwise. I think I finally started to get the idea of the permanent unpredictability of life when I arrived at college. College was so little how I expected it to be, and so little how I expected to react to it, that it was kind of jarring. The first week of my college career was the biggest reality check I have ever had smack me in the face. I fell into a routine. Things became more normal, but then not at all. Around he third month of college I began actively dissuading myself from trying to look into my faulty crystal ball.
About 10 times a day, this would be what would happen in my brain:
“This is probably going to ha-, No, Oona. It very well might not. You do not have super powers, nor will you ever.”
That sounds like I was being harsh to my brain, but when your brain acts like a small child, you have to treat it like a small child.
After 2 months or so of constantly chastising my brain, I started to fantasize less and focus on future plans rather than how things would pan out. The amount of benefit trying to envision how exactly your relationships and ventures will turn out is exactly zero, maybe in the negatives. Making solid plans for the future is how you progress because they are concrete, rather than being built on maybe’s. Delusion is a slippery slope, where if you slip, it becomes very easy to lose hope, and increasingly difficult to climb back up again.
Make solid plans. Live in the present for the present, and the future will come.